15th February 2009

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If you’re lucky, sometime in your life you’ll meet someone that makes you happier than you ever dreamt possible. They’ll make all the colors in your world twice as vibrant, the air that you breathe ten times sweeter, and reality uncomparable to a dream. They’ll sustain your heart and keep you going. Make you feel like you can fly, and so much more. You have no idea. And you’re never going to want it to end, ever. But, unfortunately, it most likely will end. Because that’s just how life goes. And when it does, all of your walls will crumble, releasing waves of hurt. and sadness. emptiness, and depression. Days will just start to run together, and you’ll find yourself tired, all the time. It’s really hard, don’t get me wrong. I mean, really, really, really hard. But trust me, you won’t regret it. Because it’s nice to know how much your heart is actually capable of loving someone. And if through the tears, you can say that they’re worth every one that falls, that’s how you know that you’ve experienced love. It’s an amazing feeling, really. But it’s so strong. The happier you are, the more vulnerable it’s making you. Because, and I’m sure this is going to make perfect sense, but the more you have, the more it hurts when you lose it. I have to say, though. I’m still pretty lucky. Actually, I’m really lucky. Even though it’s hard a lot of times, I still feel like I have way more than I deserve. I have so much, and it makes me feel bad for wanting more all the time. But sometimes you just can’t help yourself. I’m still going to try, though. Because I really really am blessed. It’s time for me to go to sleep, because yes. I’m still dying. This is like, what? Day four? Yay for that. Goodnight.