22nd February 2009

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You know how everyone has like, a biggest fear? Heights, spiders, small places, whatever. Wouldn’t it be nice to know that you’ll never have to go anywhere high? Or that you’ll never be near a spider or in a small place? I know they say it’s good to face your fears, but sometimes. It’s better not to have to. It depends on what you’re afraid of. What if your fear was…I don’t know. Being eaten by a lion. Does that mean you should go face to face with a lion? No. That would be stupid. And you would probably die. So, you see. There are some exceptions. And when you meet someone, that makes your biggest fear become losing them, it’s really nice to be able to know that you never will. Especially when you kind of assumed that you’d have to someday. Do you know what that’s like? Everyday, having that weight on your chest, because you know someday you’re going to have to be without the one thing that makes you happy. When that weight is removed, you have no idea how much easier it is to breathe. To know you’ll always have them. Because sometimes, without realizing it, you kind of take their presence in your life for granted. You know, like air. You don’t really think about it, you just breathe. But cut off your oxygen, and everything will go black. And you’ll remember just how important it’s presence was in your life. So, don’t ever take anything for granted. And don’t let losing anything be what makes you realize how much you needed it. Because in today’s world, you better be thankful for every damn thing you’ve got. I’ve got one thing in my life that honestly makes me feel like the luckiest person in the world, and it’s really nice to know that I’ll always be able to breathe. So, yeah. Tonight was good. But it’s just one night. Even still, I’m grateful for it. I’m starting to learn that I need to start appreciating certain stuff more. That doesn’t mean I’ve stopped hating everything, it just means that I’ve started to love the things I don’t hate, even more. So, okay. Goooodnight.